Thursday, November 27, 2008

Brainfall.com Quiz Result

What Type of Drunk Are You?

You are a Celebrity Drunk. By the time you've finished your first drink, everyone in the room knows your name; but by the end of the night, too many drinks might cost you your fame.

Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

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What one word embodies you?

I am the embodiment of Love. You are a person with a passion for people. You love people of all color, size, and shape. Your compassion is contagious and is your greatest strength, so hold on to it. Your view of the world is rather simple, but that�s the best thing about it. You feel that people are all one�one mass, one body, one state�and that to do harm unto anyone is to essentially harm everyone. So your answer is�LOVE.

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Brainfall.com Quiz Result

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?

You will fall for the geek. If you're looking for love, consider spending a little more time studying up in the library. To you, there's nothing more attractive than intelligence, shyness, and kindness; your future love may have four eyes and zero social skills, but he'll make up for it in brains and heart.

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Brainfall.com Quiz Result

What Kind of Drink Are You?

You are a Fine Glass of Wine. You are sophisticated and refined, but also complicated and hard to deal with. Not everyone loves you, but those who do swear that you're the coolest thing since sliced bread. One of these days the people that matter will understand you. Until then, you will be sitting on your throne as the distinguished product that not everyone has the taste to appreciate.

Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Thursday, August 28, 2008

I will make these happen

I promised before that I will make a vision board for the start of my complete life make-over but until now that is not happening. So, in the meantime, here are the list of the things that i will make happen in the near future...
  1. Achieve my ideal weight
  2. Paid Credit Cards
  3. 100,000.00 PHP investment savings
  4. 100,000.00 PHP bank savings
  5. Curtained Bed Room
  6. Clean and Organized:
    1. Bed Room
    2. Bags
    3. Closet
    4. Drawers
    5. Cosmetics
  7. Fixed and Flexible Schedule
  8. Travel, Travel, Travel
I'm gonna go for this... just you wait.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

I've been sad lately

It has been a while since my last post. And if you will notice, my other post was really on happy note. I really felt blessed and loved by my friends that surrounds me. but I guess all good things must come to an end...

Just recently, I was reading through the multiply blog of my friend's friend. And I just found out that my friend already has a girl friend and he is not even telling me. On top of that, he keeps talking sweet to me... You see this friend of mine - he has been like my confidant. Someone that I have always been able to talk to. And at some point it was like "us". There is this mutual feeling that we both liked each other. But then, since our world was not anymore our place (when we separated ways - physically but not through communication) there was already this gap.

I though that our "relationship" wouldn't get affected because we were still seeing each other weekly. Until it came to a point where we missed a week and just said that we're gonna make up for it - then another week was missed. And before we knew it, a month was over and we did not see each other physically. I thought this was okay since we were constantly in chat with each other ------- all of sudden, things changed.

And just now, it dawned on me...we are no longer "us". The mutual feeling and sweetness that we had for each other was gone. He already has some one special. And this was further cemented by the blog that I read. They were officially a couple.

Then it hit me - “Do not spend your lifetime loving a person if you have no plans to tell how you feel… its selfish.”

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Breakfast with a friend

I've been really feeling happy with the couple of breakfast that I've been having with a friend. This friend of mine is really nice. We just go out on breakfast, talk about work and just very lightly bond with each other. His wife is out of the country, that is why I am very careful with how I act with him or the bond that we are creating. I really hope that this friendship will grow as I treat him as one of a good friend in the making. We have a lot of things in common, even our likes, hobbies and lifestyle are almost similar.

I'm sure that as soon as his wife comes home, there will no more breakfast with just us. But that would be okay, as long as we remain friends. (Even with his wife too, that would be great!)

Thanks Allan for the breakfast that we have and hope that there are many more to come! I really enjoyed the ones that we had. Even the beer and night outs with our friends are good times to remember also.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Vision Board - Coming Soon

I am going to start my new life with a Vision Board. I haven't really started with this. I don't even know what to put into it.
So coming soon is my vision board.

Friday, July 18, 2008

Start of My Struggle

Ok, here is it...I am going to do this and at the same time be serious about it as well. As I have posted before, I am suffering from PCOD / PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome / Disease In my case, I am already on the disease part).

So here's the plan, super healthy living...meaning DIET, EXERCISES and minimal vices.
I'm going to put it in journal (or in this case, this blog) and hopefully if I'm successful others can have this as a source of inspiration.

This is me, my struggle for PCOS / PCOD, my life - my journey

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Rain Rain

It's been raining since yesterday and I think its affecting me. I love the rain because I find it so calming (even the thunderstorms and typhoons). When it rains, deep inside I feel so normal... like I'm not that sad anymore because I know that the angels are crying with me.

When it rains hard and continuous my emotions become raw and I suddenly feel so vulnerable. I like this because its been long since I keep on masking my real feelings just to show others that I am happy and okay. That there is no need for them to worry or even think about me.

Am I that pathetic? I think so too. I hate it when people can sense that I am sad. It's not that I want their care or concern. I just don't want them to be hassled. There are more important things that should be thought or worried about. I'm not just worth it!

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Raving on a Tuesday

Usually, I would hate Tuesdays simply because I find this to be the most longest day of the week. But today - July 15, 2008, I'm just loving it! It may be too early to tell since its not even 8AM but JP just made my day =)

JP is the hot guy that I've been blogging about for the past weeks (you can see two of the past post here and here). Again, I just really adore him. I find him cute and he's the silent type which I also like in a guy. But its not as if I'm doing something for him to notice me. I just like it this way, me just looking at him and him knowing nothing. You see, I really don't know much about him except those that I already blogged about...so its really not for me to judge if he's the boyfriend material ;) Nonetheless, I just really like him as someone who I can have a crush on - just that.

So anyway, why did JP made my day because he came to the office oh so early. He was even in here before me!! So the moment I walked into my area he was already there sitting. And since it was only the two of us, I cannot help but talk to him and acknowledge that he was there early. He was just smiling and saying that I was shocked because I was not used to it (honestly, I just wanted to say to him that I could get used to it..hahaha)

This is already a lengthy blog for me, and I didn't think it would be. Hopefully my happy day wouldn't last with this news.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Me, want this!

Cal me a geek, but I want these stuff.

I specifically want the toaster, the sofa, the practice plant, Lego salt and pepper shaker, the defendius door chain, magnetic curtains and pac-man pillows.
Unfortunately, I will not be able to afford them nor will anyone in my family or friends buy them for me.

Here's a post and shout out to all future readers who just can't help themselves but buy me these...Hehe. But seriously, I hope that when I have my own place and extra cash I get to buy them.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Whack-A-Cat

I've been meaning to post this for some time now. I just noticed that recently there are a lot of dead cats on the streets. And when I mean dead, I mean roadkill!
Are cats really that confident nowadays that they don't move fast enough to stray from the fast cars? O since most cats in the street eat our left over food, does this mean that we are eating more fatty / less healthy food that it affects even the cats who eats it?
I really don't know why there are a lot of cat roadkills now, and i may never find the bottom of this...but at least I've shared my theories on this.

Here's a game that I came across today, and it so reminded me of posting a blog on roadkill cats.

WHACK-A-CAT

Enjoy!

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Wordle = Coolness




Isn't this cool? I so like it...so as of yesterday, this is my wordle. Create your own wordle.

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

The Quarter Life Crisis

While I am passing off lunch time by myself in this cubicle of mine...I caught myself thinking again - thus, this post in the blog. I though, why not blog about it. So anyhoo, I think I'm in my quarter life crisis...So I'm 25 now, and if it's really a quarter life crisis - I get to live 'till a hundred?! NO! Not my goal. I got this from an email and I've been reading this for the nth time already...

The Quarter-Life Crisis
by unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.


So I really think I'm going all through this plus the fact the my PCOD is driving me insane right now. I don't usually think about it (just shrug it off the way back in my head) but now, I seem to think about it more often than not.

Quick Updates

What have I been up to lately with no posting since the 5th...
Restless the whole weekend....just lay in the bed the whole weekend, thinking. Those thoughts are about to be blogged some time soon.

At work, nothing up really just the usual. I just wish I had a car so that I can leave work at exactly 5! My manager gave me chocolates today from Hawaii - i think that was where he had his long over due vaca. (I have yet to learn how to upload pics to show you the delicious macadamia covered chocolates).

It's too early to tell how my week will go....It's super Tuesday so let's keep our hopes up!

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Polycystic Ovarian Disease (PCOD)

Polycystic Ovarian Disease (PCOD) is a multi-organ involved disease or a condition that is created due to hormonal imbalances in women. It is also known as hyper androgen related disease, which is not curable but can be controlled.

I am 25 years old and I was diagnosed with this two years ago. Ever since I found out that I had this, I just didn't know what to do... you see, I am still single and currently have no boyfriend. Questions that came into mind was endless. I didn't look for answers but rather explanations and reasons. My ambitions changed, my perspective shifted. I didn't know why but it was like the whole world dropped on me. And to make things worse, I had to pretend that it didn't bother me. That this was something not to bother with.

My life now revolves with my family and the problems that they have. With that, my life was out of the questions. It was like I was given the task to make sure that everyone is happy and that I could not share my problems with them. That's how I felt. You see, whenever I feel like ranting about my life - my health problem, my work or my friends; my family just turns their back and nudges it off...like it was not as important as the one that they are having.

Part of my reasons for this blog is to share my experiences having PCOD. The meds that I am taking, the prescriptions that my doctor is giving me and most importantly the battle with this.
Someday, when my blog is being read by more than me, I hope that my experiences will be able to help them realize that they are still normal.

Having PCOD is tough in my personality, emotions and life.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Confrontation with myself

I'm still at work and its 20 past 6...Why am I here? I'm not workaholic, its just that my ride haven't arrived yet...and I can't work anymore because my head already hurts...so now, I am blogging.

Given that I still have time, I think this would be a good chance for me to let you into me! (huh?!)
So anyway, I am still..to date I am 25 years of age, working in a corporate world, have a medical condition - pcos/d, lost and doesn't know where to go. yes that's me.... i don't even know who I really am. Frankly, there is a part of me that doesn't want to. For now, I will describe two things that I think people should know about me....

1. I never tell the whole truth. I know this is a gray area on honesty and all, but that's me, I really never tell the whole truth. if some one asks me who am I, I'll respond with my work is OK, quite busy but manageable..or something to that effect. Most of the time, I would even sugar coat the truth just to make sure that other people, especially my parents, would feel secure that I am fine. In reality, I am fine, well at least some parts of my life is fine.

2. I just want to be happy. That's about it..I just want to feel the real happiness that emanates from people when they say that they are truly happy....I don't think I have felt that or if I did; it has been too long that I forgot.

What is my purpose for this blog? I would just want a space (anywhere really, i just find that this is the most convenient and less scandal for me)....where I could be really honest and tell the whole truth. Express myself and somewhat leave a trace of who I really am.

This is me for now, and this from this point on, i will share as much of me in the journey of my life.

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

What to do?

I'm at work and I feel restless...I don't know why but I hope to get some kind of inspiration.
This is sucking the life out of me.
Right now, I would want to post my health condition - but that too gives me a headache. And even on that, I am not inspired at all.

What to do? What to do?

Friday, June 27, 2008

Tease!

If you remember my post about my new office crush and how hot he was while drinking...I think he knows that I have a thing for him. (Jeezz..I don't want that...really, I don't)

Today, about 10 minutes ago...he walked pass me to get water. He drank a gulp (with that oh so manly, oh so hot gulp) and looked at me.

I almost died!

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Reality check...I'm sure he looked at me not because he was teasing me, or trying to look hot for me. Rather, he was doing it because he felt that I was looking at him. You know, the feeling that someone is looking at you that's why you look at them. (I tried to make it look like I'm thinking and not really looking at him -- GAWD! I was so embarrased!) Anyway, I'm sure for him its just nothing.

Salamat sa Breakfast!

I had a super great morning! My best friend treated me for breakfast.

I'll add more on this post in a while...need to work first.

My "a while" took the weekend plus a day to post. Anyway, my best guy friend treat me out for breakfast! He called me and said that he was taking the day-off from work and is on his way to my office so that we could have breakfast. Its been a while since I was last with my best bud....too long that I was so excited when we met. We had an hour and a half to chat and eat and chat and chat. Although we always YM each other everyday, its just different when you actually see and hold the person you are talking to.

After that delightful breakfast, he texted me in the afternoon telling me that my toys have arrived! How great is he! I love you...you are really a friend. Even the littlest things are worthwhile.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Quotes (3)

I'm getting my whole post on Quotes (3) from this single website..and I think it is only fair to link it up here ... just in case you would want to visit the site I have gotten this quotes from. They're nice and profound. I've been using one as my status in ym.

In time, the pain it took to stay, became greater than the pain it took to go.
Letting go doesn't mean you have to stop loving someone.
It simply means you have to accept that there are some things that cannot be.
You don't ever stop loving someone...
its more a matter of learning to deal with the pain of not having them anymore.
Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us, but the truth is,
its not our loss, but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them.

Absece sharpens love, presence strengthens it.
Benjamin Franklin

Angwe is never without a reason, but seldom a good one.
Benjamin Franklin

There are two ways of being happy: We must either diminish our wants or augment our means
- either may do - the result is the same and it is for each man to decide for himself and to do that which happens to be easier.

Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody,
I think that is a much greater hunger,
a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.
Mother Teresa

If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other.
Mother Teresa

If we want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out.
To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it.
Mother Teresa

Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty.
Mother Teresa

One of the greatest diseases is to be nobody to anybody.
Mother Teresa

The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread.
Mother Teresa

A man should look for what is, and not for what he thinks should be.
Albert Einstein

Everything Blogthings




You Are a Total Brainiac



You're amazingly brilliant. Some would even say genius.

You're curious, thoughtful, analytical, and confident.



You take on difficult subjects because you want to... not because you have to.

No field of knowledge is too complicated or intimidating for you.



You've got the brains to do anything you want.

It's possible you end up doing everything you want.









Your Brain is 53% Female, 47% Male



Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

How HOT was that!

I have a lot of things to do before 9AM and its about 8AM already....but I would spare 5 minutes of my time to blog about this....

Ok so I am seated near the water dispenser here in the office. And there's this guy who is quite tall - probably around 5'7", hair is shave to about half an inch....not really that good looking but cute with a well physique body, he may as well be yummy! so anyway, it's 7:50AM and he comes to the office (which is quite early for him btw!). He looks tired, from the commute maybe, and goes directly to his area and gets his water tumbler.

Then, he goes to water dispenser to have a get some water - or so I think....what he did is really hot for me! He probably filled his tumbler and drank it all the way down ---- and i could hear his every swallow of the water, it was so masculine....and after that a soothing "aahhh", which is somewhat a moan like sound came from him. And then he filled his tumbler again and went back to his area.

I don't what that was, but I was just turned on by that, and now he has just joined my watch list....hahahaha This guy is just so HOT and yummy (or maybe the thing that he did! hahahaha). Nonetheless, all that I could utter to myself after that was "How HOT was that!"

Hey JP, I'll definitely keep in mind to be at my area when you are that thirsty...Hehehe.


P.S.
I spent 10 minutes on this!

Monday, June 23, 2008

My weekend with Frank

This weekend has been rainy - with Frank the Storm raining all weekend it was bittersweet.
I love the rain, it gives me a sense of solace and peace. However, the flood and death it leaves behind to others are sad. I have no real stories to tell during the weekend, but rather just a post to say that I enjoyed the storm but at the same time I pray for those that were victimized by it.

Quote:
Serenity is not freedom from the storm, but peace amid the storm

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Having a bad day

It's just the start of the day and I am having a bad one...woke up really bad because I was still sleepy yet I had to get up early because I will ride with my brother-in law. He would always want to leave before 6AM...as if his job would require that he be in early...so anyway, who was I to complain, I was just riding with him.

I left my mobile phone at home (which will make my day worst because there will be no way for my dad to contact me when he will pick me up later)..UUgghhh...I hate this day already...

My office phone is still not configured because the support here is sooo lame....I have tons of things to do and tons of reading today....I am so tired, it is so hot here in the office - the air conditioning seems to be stuck at fan...

To top it all of, I just got my period with no sanitary napkins on hand...so I had to go down (where it is all hot and humid outside) buy sanitary napkins, call our support to fix my phone and get all the readings done before my conference call....

Why am I having such a bad day?!!?!?!!


If its this bad early in the morning, I hope things will be better for me towards the end of the day.

Friday, June 13, 2008

T2D for the weekend (June 14-15)

Ok, ok..I'll make this short since Sunday is Father's Day, this means that I only have Saturday to consider my weekend.
  1. Reformat PC
    1. Back-up Data
    2. Download and Install needed Software
  2. Nail Spa
    1. Hand
    2. Foot
  3. Power Cycle

This is a short list, I SHOULD GET THIS DONE!!!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Quotes (2)

Here are additional quotes that I came across while reading blogs... I wanted to post them right away so that I will not forget.
They are just ultra hilarious ( specially when you can relate ).

10 UTOS SA PAG-INOM: (***I wanted to send this to my friends because most of them are so true! Hahaha!***)
1. wag makulit habang umiinom [Reminded me of Jek]
2. wag matakaw sa pulutan (hindi ito picnic) [Reminded me of Raf]
3. wag patagalin ang baso (dahil may naghhntay)
[Reminded me of Marizz]
4. wag inom lang ng inom (bumili ka rin) [Reminded me of James]
5. uminom ng diretso sa tiyan (wag sa ulo) [Reminded me of Macoy]
6. magparamdam kng uuwi na (di ung bigla ka na lng mawawala) [Reminded me of Sir Jorge]
7. magtabi ng pamasahe (para di ka maglakad pauwi ng bahay) [Reminded me of Reggie]
8. wag matutulog sa harap ng kainuman kung may tama o lasing na [Reminded me of James]
9. cguraduhing sa bahay ang uwi kpag lasing na [Reminded me of Altair]
10. sa kanal o sa inidoro sumuka (wag sa katabi) [Reminded me of Macoy]

Cartoon characters that r bad influences to our kids: (***The kids...my lovable pamangkins...hahaha***)
1. Dora the Explorer (lakwachera)
2. Blue's Clues (mahilig magkalat)
3. Winnie the Pooh (lumalabas ng walang panty)
4. Spongebob (bobong tanga)
5. Kids next door (mga gagong bata)
6. Winx (malalanding ilusyonada)
7. Barney (baklang dinosaur)

Quotes (1)

Here are a couple of quotes that I came across recently...At first, it may seem hilarious but once you think about it - you'll realize it's also true

  1. "Kung kaya ng iba,ipagawa mo sa kanila. Don't force yourself. Make life easy." (if others can do it, let them.)
  2. "If others can do it, don't help. That is why we are overworked and underpaid."
Had I known these years ago, I would have not suffered too much stress from my previous work. Hahaha!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Useless weekend

During the weekend I accomplished almost nothing. I spent most of the time in bed, sleeping. (I wasn't even able to update my blog). Don't get me wrong though, I wasn't super lazy (maybe just a little...hehe). It was because of this erratic headaches that I am getting. The weird thing about my headaches is that it is not concentrated on an area of my head. Usually, it is just in the lower part, near the nape. But on some occasions it would be at the back of my head in eye level. I don't really know the cause of the headaches but its really making me unproductive. (Being unproductive in my family makes you lazy outright.)

I'm not sure if these are effects of me having a Polycystic Ovarian Disease (PCOD) other names for PCOD are polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). You see, I was diagnosed with this last 2004 and its only now that I am taking my meds seriously. I'll post a new entry for this.

At the end of that week end, I really felt useless because until now, I am experiencing those erratic headaches and its driving me insane!!

Friday, June 06, 2008

T2D for the weekend (June 7-8)

[Ok...before anything else T2D stands for "Things to Do"...it has been my practice to always jot down the things that I am suppose to do. At least at this point, I have some sort of schedule to follow. ]
  1. Fix blog (yiheee...now that I have a blog this has changed from 'plan blog')
  2. Organize finances bills (yes...i have that many bills to pay - thanks to credit cards, whew!)
  3. Fix Closet
  4. Clean Drawers
  5. Organize Bags (I am a bag fanatic)
  6. Watch Series
    1. Chuck
    2. IT Crowd
  7. Spa
    1. Foot Spa
    2. Hair Spa
    3. Body Scrub
  8. Have a hair cut
  9. Gym - Power Cycle and Hip Hop Abs
  10. Some relaxation and contemplation.
I know, I know...how the heck will I be able to fit all these in the weekend? I can't. But it's always worth a try.

http://goosh.org/

I'm loving this! This is a unix-shell-like interface for Google.

It makes creates a "techie" feel when searching through google. I've bookmarked and saved this as my new web browser search engine. Quoting Stefan Grothkopp, goosh.org is " This google-interface behaves similar to a unix-shell. You type commands and the results are shown on this page."



(Ok, ok...i'm a closet geek! But that's for another post)

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Wahoo!

Alas! My blog has come to life.

It has taken me months of deliberation to put up this blog. A lot of consideration and careful thinking. I know that for some this decision is a piece of cake, but for me its not. I have really been inspired by a lot of blogs out there -- the funny ones, the informative blogs, the controversial and those that are just out there (the ones that really looks like a diary of their activities). And the last one has been those blogs that became my inspiration.


As part of my very first entry I would like to make it clear to myself (and to probably to future readers) that this blog will be based on my true and raw emotions. A promise to myself that honesty, candidness and spontaneity will be core of this blog.

This is my blog, my space in the world wide web...my stories, my life, my journey- voyage de ma vie.